Chapter 111 – Your life is mine.

To die in thanksgiving.

Su Yan was not surprised by this, after all, once back to life, twice familiar. Before the fall valley in the cave, Jing Hongchu mistakenly thought that he had offended him, but also this pair of as if he had lost his mother’s look, nearly slapped a palm in the sky, and slapped himself to death.

This is blackmail! Just because he was soft-hearted and didn’t hold any grudges, and always remembered people’s good deeds. For a moment, he wanted to curse recklessly, “Then go to hell! Just don’t die in front of my eyes.”

The thought had just flashed through his mind like a phantom when it caused a twinge of pain in his heart, not strong, but gripping.

— It was not blackmail. The other man’s pain and despair and guilt were all so intense, almost hand-wringing, spread out naked before him, left to judge his own fate.

At this moment, as long as he said a single word, or even not a single word, just a look of disgust and hatred, the other party would not hesitate to cut himself. And the movement would be so fast that he wouldn’t be able to stop it in time.

He could clearly see the death wish contained in Jing Hongchou’s gaze, both cold and silent and obsessively hot, as if his entire body and mind were ignited by some kind of obsession, knowing that it was hopeless, but still wanting to fly into the flame, like the most devout believer’s self-sacrifice to the gods.

Su Yan had a headache. Rationally, he knew that he couldn’t blame Jing Hongchou, after all, after going crazy, his mind was confused, and what he said and did was not his intention. A chase is also a victim, if it is in a conscious state, he believes that the other party would rather die than do this kind of thing.

But things really happened after all. He had a relationship with his valet, and it was no longer possible to pretend that nothing had happened and return to the usual atmosphere of getting along.

Su Yan rubbed his temples, since taking a cloth belt to tighten the palm wound, said tiredly: “you die and how, what has happened can be written off? People die without knowing or realizing, but in the heart of the living people left behind the claws of slush, a lifetime of human life debt.”

Jing Hongchu’s face was as gray as ashes, “I can’t die, and I don’t have the face to live, what should I do?”

Su Yan sighed, “You go.”

Jing Hongchou’s body suddenly shook, and the look on his face was more painful and desperate than taking his life. “My lord ……” His lips trembled, his teeth clenched, and the way he looked at Su Yan was like a dying wolf under a hunting knife, “Your lordship is going to drive me away?”

Su Yan made this decision, and inwardly he couldn’t say whether he felt good or sad.

“You and I were originally traveling together in order to take care of each other. Now both have been out of danger, parting ways is normal. You want to go back to the capital to avenge your sister, I will not stop you. And I have the Jinyiwei around me, have the Commanding General’s soldiers and horses, security is also not a problem. Why don’t we part ways here, just like the note you once left me, ‘The green mountains will not change, the green water will flow forever’.”

Jing Hongchou let out a low hiss and violently pounded his fist on his side, smashing a shallow crater in the paved brick floor. “I said a long time ago that this life should belong to the lord …… If you want to drive me away, you might as well cut me into a thousand pieces ……”

Su Yan smiled bitterly: “But I also said long ago that a man’s life is too long and too precious for anyone but himself to take away. You do not belong to me, you should belong to yourself. Go, leave this square inch of my side, the world is vast, you will make a big difference. According to your skill, it is not difficult to build up a career, and perhaps even to make a name for yourself for the rest of your life.”

“I’m not going anywhere!”

After Jing Hongchu growled, she in turn calmed down a bit and lifted a pair of densely bloodshot eyes to look at Su Yan, ”I’ll be wherever I want to be-”

“There are so many people in this world, each with their own way of living, some build a career, some chasing fame and fortune, some greedy for enjoyment, and even more muddle-headed nothing, in any case, the road is their own choice, and who stipulates that you have to go on that blue sky road?”

“But Chase, don’t you have any ambition to build something of your own ……”

Jing Hongchou interrupted Su Yan, “My lord is my cause! I just want to stand by your lordship’s side, guarding you, protecting you, becoming your sword your arm, being your stepping stone when necessary, lifting you up to a higher place-can’t I choose to live like this?”

He gasped a few breaths, staring at the floor tiles, his voice lowered, like no waves of stagnant water, “Since I was young, no father, no mother, the only thing I have in this world is my sister. Wandering around the world, fast and furious, depending on the kill and be killed as life’s norm, even into the death camp, every night may not see the next day’s sunrise, but also do not feel fear. Sometimes I feel like a shadow, no flesh and blood, not to mention the needs and desires, do not know what is the meaning of my life.

“When my sister died, I was so angry that I swore to avenge her at all costs, and at the same time a twinge of fear …… actually arose, not from the thought of what happens to trespassers and defectors, but from the feeling that the last bit of my connection with the world was gone, and that from then on I would truly be a living dead man. “

A man who is not remembered by anyone, who has no ties, who hides alone in the darkness, and whose only appearances are accompanied by blades and death. Is he still a living man?

Su Yan couldn’t help but shiver.

Jing Hong chased to his knees to move closer to half a step, and then forced to stop, trembling voice: “Until I met the Lord, I gradually feel that I have popularity, like the withered bones in the barren mound received the essence of the blood, delusion of the skin and flesh to be born. It is me who was ungrateful and craved for pleasures that should not belong to me, so much so that I defiled the white wall and made a big mistake.

“I know that there is no expiation for my death; if your honor wants me to die, I will die; if you want me to spend the rest of my life to pay for my sins, I can tear down my bones for firewood, cut my flesh for cooking, and flay my skin for a garment; as long as there is still a bit of my body that can be looked upon, your honor may take it, but I beg that you will not expel me back into the darkness again.”

He had never spoken in such a long paragraph before, and though the volume was low, he was almost hoarse by the end.

Su Yan was surprised to hear a sense of thirst from his last few words, “You! Your party was not due to going off the deep end, but ……”

Jing Hong chased after her teeth and said as if she was making a break for it, ”Entering the devil will distort one’s mind and stimulate one’s desires, but it won’t create something out of nothing. To do this kind of thing to adults, the root cause is still in me …… I gave birth to the heart of love and desire for adults! Want to embrace, want to possess, and even get an inch, want to seek a long time together.

“I looked at every glance of the lord, it was like frying on the fire, but I did not dare to show the slightest, lest I be disliked by the lord, if I had not gone off the deep end, perhaps I would have continued to endure until …… until I could not bear it any longer, and in the end, I myself did not know what would have happened … …”

Su Yan’s face was a little pale, “Sh, when did it start …… in the cave?”

Jing Hong shook his head after him.

“Earlier. I female disguise sneak into the carriage, want to take hostages to escape from the capital, but I did not expect to nearly accidentally injure your Excellency. Your Excellency does not care about the past, once again to save me, buried my face in …… buried in the nest of your neck. His Excellency was surrounded by soldiers with swords drawn, and with only a weak body, he scared off the old Wei thief who was full of killing intent, and also said that I ……” His cheeks, whose blood had faded, vaguely reddened, “said that I was your concubine.”

Suyen covered his face with his palm ……

Called you a bitch! You thought the other guy was straight, so you flirted and joked around! Now you’ve made a fool out of yourself by flirting with the other guy!

“I love Your Excellency, and if Your Excellency has no intention of treating me at all, I will return to where I was, and be a loyal and dutiful guard for the rest of my life. If your lordship can have a trace of love for me, even if it is only a tiny bit, it is the greatest mercy God has ever given me. But I can’t leave you, even if you drive me away, I will hide near you day and night, just don’t let you see me.”

Jing Hong chased a long breath, as if finally spit out the bottom of the heart, all loose, resting his eyes waiting for God’s verdict.

“God” opened his mouth and rushed out a huge sneeze, followed by several more, tears bursting out.

After all, on the 15th of August, the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, the weather turned cooler and the night breeze was already chilly. Although it was warmer indoors than outside, he and Jing Hongchou were both naked at the moment.

Jing Hong chased practicing martial arts, strong body, naked naturally no harm. He was delayed for such a quarter of an hour, and his eyes saw stuffy nose, chills, and sneezing.

Next to the large barrel, the white mist faded a lot, but the water is still warm. Su Yan touched the goose bumps on his arm, busy holding the rim of the barrel to cross inward, just raised a leg, the overused place behind him was pulled, the pain made him shiver, not hanging on the edge of the bath tub.

Jing Hong chased after him, his greenish-white face suddenly turned red, and he subconsciously got up and reached out.

It is said that once bitten by a snake ten years afraid of well rope, Su Yan thought that he would reject Jing Hong chasing contact, did not think that he has long been accustomed to the guard’s “close” degree, even his breath are familiar with such as their own, this old habits than the new blow is more deeply rooted, and called him stunned for a moment, a moment did not push away.

By the time he reacted and tried to refuse, he had already been gently helped into the tub.

Red and swollen place immersed in warm water, burning feeling suddenly reduced a lot, Su Yan breathed out, suddenly remembered that just now in the bath tub was washed by Yan [beep] face, the other side of those contraptions are not all melted in the water? And his own whole body is now soaked in ……

His face turned ugly all of a sudden, and he rose from the water with a start, grabbing the rim of the bucket with his injured hand and stumbling again in pain.

Jing Hongchu had not yet gotten the exact words from Su Yan’s mouth, not knowing when the edge of the hanging neck would fall, and seeing this, she cautiously asked, “Is it the water that’s cold?”

With her uninjured hand, Su Yan flung a handful of water in the other’s face, “It’s dirty! It’s all your-“

He shut his mouth resentfully.

Jing Hong chased his face and felt that the water was clearly clean, just not too hot, so he said, “My subordinate will go and bring a few buckets of boiling water to mix with the heat. Adult be careful of the hand wound, don’t touch the water.” Said as if to escape to put on clothes and pants.

Su Yan was annoyed, “Don’t mix it! I want all new water.”

“It will take some time to change the water, and your honor is afraid of catching a cold if you soak in the warm water for too long, why don’t you dry off and put on some clothes first?”

Isn’t it all sticking to the body? In fact, compared to the whole bucket of water, “that thing” is a little bit insignificant, Su Yan is not a person of cleanliness, just because the heart of the diaphragm, holding a share of the Ming fire, to vent in Jing Hong chase body venting.

“What to wear? The previous one was torn to shreds by you and not cleaned on you, how can a new one be good to wear. I’ll give you one incense burner, no, one tea, give me all new water! It’s too late to burn it, aren’t you a strong martial artist, use your inner strength to help heat it up!”

Jing Hongchou is not afraid of being made to call by him, lest he refuses to call, and hurriedly put on his clothes and went out.

Su Yan sneezed again in a series of sneezes, only to shrink back into the tub and sniff the water nervously.

There is really no odor in the water. He wiped his face again and muttered indignantly, “Damn paste me an eye, I am afraid not to have keratitis …… hold how long ah, the amount is so large, and thick, and the smell is also rushing …… “

He ruffled the water in exasperation, and Jing Hong chased that heartbreaking confession back to his ears.

It would be a lie to say that you are completely indifferent …….

He knows that Jing Hongchou is grateful to him and intends to follow him around, but he does not know that the other party hides such a deep and hot feeling, simply to the point of paranoid and pathological …… However, according to the origin and experience of Ah Chou, he can grow into today s appearance, and not crooked too much, it is already not easy.

And Chase is also close to self-mutilation in general extremely restrained, if not accidentally went off the deep end, I’m afraid that he will never know the inside story for the rest of his life.

Now that this is a difficult situation to ride, it is really hard to know what to do, Su Yan sighed.

Watching him kill himself to thank for his sins is not possible, drive him and refuse to go, look at the meaning is that even if you drive away, will also hide in the neighborhood tracking peeping, more diaphragmatic.

But to let him continue to hang around day and night, always inevitably think of that thing …… first brother really trouble, foreplay, expansion, lubrication what do not know, if not just have lamp oil on hand, I guess just started that a few times has been blood flowed like a note …… lubrication or pain, the first brother really trouble, foreplay, expansion, lubrication what do not know. When was the last time I suffered such a crime?

People Shen Qi has not been on the male before, all know to do a good strategy beforehand. There is also the king of Yu that son of a bitch, mandatory return to mandatory, in the end did not really let him pain …… pooh! What do I want to do with all this? This fucking is worth comparing the honorable thing?

Blame the original owner of this faggot body, the beginning of the pain like that, chest are worn skin, actually still cool, but also orgasm several times, and even in front of the front did not even jerk, directly from the back of the cao she! This is simply – thief God, can not change a skin bag? The seven old and eighty also can ah! Early death early reincarnation, the next life is still a good man ……

Su Yan was a little aggravated and a little vain, his mind was sky high, floating with the aftermath of pain and pleasure, oblivious to how long had passed.

When Jing Hongchou came in with several buckets of freshly boiled water in one breath, he was seeing Lord Su sitting stagnantly in the tub, his gaze seeming to penetrate the void and go straight to the thirty-three heavens, which sounded good to say that his soul was wandering in the void, but in reality the more he looked at it, the more it looked like he was in love with the world.

He was shocked, put down the bucket and swept over, holding Su Yan’s shoulder exposed on the water, and said urgently: ”Sir? My lord, don’t scare me! I know I’m wrong! If you really don’t want to see me, I …… will leave your sight, do not have the thought of light life!”

Su Yan somewhat woodenly turned his head to look at him, thinking: mom is not big, the guy is quite big, the skirt is lifted on the battlefield, make me have a psychological shadow, the thought of those who wear skirts outside of the maidservant, I am worried that it will not be another big hanging moe girl ……

Jing Hong chased by him to look all over the body chills, needle prick like shrink back to the hand, hanging eyes and biting teeth, hard to say, “subordinates know, this will leave, adults take care …… I go to call the boy to come in to change the water.”

Saying that, his figure flashed, only to hear a slight sound of the window sash, and he floated out like green smoke.

Su Yan back to God, opened his mouth, low scolded: “mention all mention in, first help me change a water before going to die ah! An elm brain! Foolish!”

The air in the room is still floating in the smell of the room, he really do not have the face to call the boys in the aftermath, but only resigned to climb out of the tub, pouring in a few buckets of boiling water mixed with some hot, make do with a bath, change into clean blasphemy.

And find a bottle of trauma medicine powder, to the palm has stopped the bleeding of the mouth on the medicine, in fact, the mouth is not much, is a little deep stabbing, this hand will have to nurse for a few days.

The place where the skin was worn on the chest was also medicated. He hesitated and reached out to touch the chrysanthemum …… Fortunately, it was not broken, and the swelling was starting to go down, so I guess it s okay.

A floor of water and broken porcelain is also too lazy to clean up, the torn clothes and pants to the end of the bed, Su Yan only feel the bones scattered, tired and fell asleep.

This sleep was actually pretty solid, but unfortunately too short.

Less than three days, heard the front yard noisy, and the sound of weapons fighting. Su Yan face sleepy, forced to get up, put on a coat, pushed the door and asked: “What’s going on?”

Gao Shuo hurriedly arrived and clasped his fists, “I’m sorry to have disturbed Your Excellency. It’s that class of Warratians, I don’t know what kind of madness they’ve gone through, and they’re coming to seek justice for their leader.”

“The chief of the Vaishnavas ……,” Su Yan’s glue-like brain was being slowly stirred by sleep, “Altan? What happened to him.”

“Said he was poisoned by the assassination and is dying.”

Su Yan suddenly sobered up, broke out in a cold sweat on his back, and lost his voice, “What?”