Surviving the Game as a Barbarian – 261



Episode 261: Clan (5)

The other day I spoke to Misha.

She says she considers you a valuable colleague.

She drew the line with cowardly words.

I thought it was the right thing to do and it actually was the right thing to do. At that time not only was I still burning my will to ‘return’…

I had no right to cross that line.

Because I am an ‘evil spirit’.

I thought that even if I whispered affection using Bjorn Jandel’s body it would ultimately be deceiving the other person.

but….

“What do you mean? “You don’t think of me as just a colleague…?”

I answered Misha’s question with her eyes wide open without a moment of hesitation.

“You know right? “What am I talking about?”

This is something I learned clearly after visiting the community this time.

Than Lee Han-soo’s room which was dark and gloomy.

Where I stand now feels much more like home.

“I didn’t tell you properly….”

Misha who had been avoiding my eyes and looking at the wall slowly turned her head and looked at me.

“How could I know that…?”

Maybe this is what Baekho Lee was wary of.

The moment you form a deep relationship with an NPC your desire to stay here becomes stronger.

But so what?

“I like you Misha Karlstein.”

‘Return’ is a good thing now.

Does it mean that when a man and woman are in a relationship it becomes difficult to make rational decisions in the labyrinth?

This is also the same.

It was already too late anyway.

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Even at this moment I value my teammates including Misha and I can no longer make myself the only priority.

‘Dwalky.’

It was a trace that he left me as an inheritance.

Well what can I do if you show that kind of attitude and leave?

I can’t think of it as an NPC at all.

“….”

What would Misha’s answer be?

I felt nervous for the first time in a long time but I didn’t let it show and didn’t let it affect the results.

A moment of silence passed like that.

“Bjorn.”

Soon Misha ended her long silence and opened her mouth.

Before I knew it she had slipped out of the blanket covering her body and was standing in front of me.

“…Let’s go out.”

Misha squeezed my hand.

And she led me out of the house.

I didn’t ask where I was headed.

“….”

Early in the morning people slowly woke up and started getting active. Misha and I came out without even wearing coats and took a room at an inn 30 meters away.

And they hugged each other tightly.

“Bjorn let’s go…! “It hurts if I hug you too hard…”

I moved the clumsy barbarian’s body carefully and carefully fearing I might get hurt.

“Are you sure it’s okay…?”

“…Anything for you.”

Although Misha was clumsy she hugged me warmly.

The time we held each other tightly sharing warmth with each other continued until the evening.

‘…The tail was like this.’

It was the day I saw with my own eyes what I had always been curious about.

But happiness is like a fleeting illusion.

“Bjorn.”

“Why don’t you sleep more? Don’t worry about Einar and Erwen. “You’ll be fine.”

“There’s something else I need to say.”

“…huh?”

As soon as she tilted her head as she suddenly wanted to know something Misha immediately sat down on her bed and looked at me.

And she spoke with determination in her voice.

“As expected… I think it would be better if we just stayed as colleagues.”

It’s a car.

***

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It felt like I was dreaming.

[Misha Karlstein I like you.]

From the moment I heard those words my heart started beating like crazy and the whole world started to shine brightly.

So it was.

[…Let’s go out.]

Misha led Bjorn out of the house as if running away.

That’s because I was anxious.

It felt like I would wake up from a dream if I looked away even for a moment.

[Bjorn Bjorn Bjorn…!]

[I’m not going anywhere so don’t worry.]

A dream-like time continued like that.

The two conveyed their warmth to the other and sometimes they got tired and took a break to talk.

From when we first met until now.

We talked about many moments and expressed our feelings and thoughts to each other.

It was a time for everyone to check in and share with each other.

but….

‘You fell asleep for a moment….’

A dream is a dream because you have to wake up someday.

Misha slowly opened his eyes.

Outside her window she saw a dark sky and the man she wanted so much was lying down and dozing next to her.

For a moment she felt deep happiness at that sight.

‘….’

I came to my senses as the world became colored with the colors of reality.

‘As expected of Bjorn….’

It’s an evil spirit.

Misha couldn’t even tell her hidden words from her heart and swallowed them.

Just thinking about her made her heart break.

“Hmm….”

Her breath caught in her throat.

She had been suspicious all along but it was today that she became certain of her identity.

That’s because she heard from Charon yesterday what her ‘duties’ were and checked this and that with Einar.

Only barbarians can give birth to barbarians.

This is something she knew from the beginning.

but….

[Isn’t it possible to love? Haha what kind of obvious statement are you making? Of course you can. As far as I know there are quite a few people like that!]

Barbarians are also people after all.

As they spend more time living in the city forming teams with other explorers than their compatriots in the Holy Land and hanging out with them their values ​​gradually change.

[The tribal chief says that any warrior will change a little after living in the city for a few years. Chief Ah even called it ‘urbanization.’]

Just because I have a beautiful heart.

Because our personalities fit well.

After spending a long time together affection has built up.

There certainly exist in this city barbarians who feel a rational attraction to the target regardless of their race.

However they also had something in common.

[Still I heard that finding a partner is difficult. Because most people do not understand ‘duty’.]

They also want to have children.

Einar also said that it was a tribal mission imprinted on the soul.

So Misha also tried to understand.

That was why I went up to my room without saying anything even though I waited until morning because I was so stuffy that I couldn’t close my eyes.

But…

[Misha nothing really happened at the shrine last night and I hope you don’t misunderstand me because of that.]

She was told not to misunderstand.

[Because you are no longer considered only a colleague.]

I also heard that story.

At the time I was so happy that I couldn’t think of anything but when I came to my senses I was full of contradictions.

Of course I believe that nothing happened in the Holy Land.

but….

‘Then why did you lie to Charon?’

Why did Bjorn say that he was going to do ‘duty’ to Charon?

Now that I think about it the answer was simple.

‘…Because it had to be that way.’

The only barbarians who do not fulfill their duties are first-year warriors who have not yet established themselves.

In many ways it is strange for a warrior who has earned the nickname ‘Giant’ to abandon his duties.

So Bjorn used Charon.

What Charon said yesterday is proof of that.

[Bjorn is currently doing his duty at the shrine with the female warriors so don’t even think about interfering with him!]

Without needing to probe too deeply Charon revealed the whole story. If Bjorn really wanted to keep it a secret it couldn’t have happened.

If that were the case he would have definitely made me swear.

Considering his usual thoroughness it was more reasonable to think that this was intentional.

Charon wanted to spread the word among barbarian society.

Bjorn Yandel is doing his ‘duty’.

‘Still the reason we had to go through the trouble of changing our appearances…’

Soon Misha lowered her head.

‘Because I like me…’

Bjorn wanted to.

I hope to be seen as a barbarian who does my duty by my compatriots but I don’t want people to hear such stories about me.

In fact if it hadn’t been for the fact that he had stopped by the bar because he felt cold that night he would have still thought that Bjorn had just been drinking all night.

He would have heard that answer even if he had asked someone else.

‘Now I…”

When he learned the truth of everything his hands and feet trembled.

Bjorn Yandel is an evil spirit.

However my heart towards him does not cool down at all.

That’s natural.

He said he fell in love not with Bjorn Yandel but with the man who saved him by inhabiting his body and with whom he has been on many journeys until now.

‘So… what should I do now?’

After all it doesn’t matter if he’s an evil spirit.

Even if everyone criticizes you for doing something wrong just follow what he taught you and do whatever you want.

But still practical problems remain.

‘If things go on like this one day we’ll get caught….’

Love makes rational judgment difficult.

Misha knows this better than anyone else.

In reality Bjorn made the wrong choice.

It was much better for him to hide his identity if he really did his ‘duty’ rather than pretending to do it.

However there is only one reason for not doing so.

He was himself.

‘Yes because of me…’

Soon Misha made a decision.

If this relationship continues Bjorn will make a bigger mistake if not today.

therefore….

‘I just have to endure it….’

After all this is the best.

Just imagining it already makes his heart sink.

Still he is confident that he can endure it.

That’s how he lived his whole life until he met a man named Bjorn Yandel.

“Bjorn.”

She called Jeongin’s name and woke him up.

and….

“Why don’t you sleep more? Don’t worry about Einar and Erwen. “She’ll be fine on her own —”

“There’s something else I need to say.”

She said trying to smile awkwardly.

Even if the road is full of only pain.

“As expected… I think it would be better if you and I just remain colleagues.”

I’m sure you can do it.

If that’s what it’s for this guy.

***

[You come home in a little while. I will take good care of my children… okay?]

Misha left before her mind could fully understand what had happened to me.

and….

“….”

I was frozen in place like a stone.

It’s called Barbarian Burglar mode.

“You said you got dumped…?”

Her head was pounding.

What did I do wrong?

Did you make any mistakes today?

“….”

She thought about it for a while but all kinds of delusions came to her mind so she just checked out and left.

Yes is there anything to groan about?

If you have any questions just ask.

If you do something wrong just fix it.

“Oh you came? Come and have a meal.”

As soon as she returned home Misha greeted me as if nothing had happened.

“You’re here mister.”

“Bjorn you stayed out all night and now you’re coming back? Next time she drinks take me too!”

Erwen and Einar just thought I had returned home.

First we all gathered together and had dinner.

I wanted to ask you about what you said earlier but I couldn’t ask it here.

“Well then I’m tired so I’m going to rest first!”

When her meal was over Misha ran up to her own room.

“Erwen Misha is strange today. “The same goes for walking with an awkward posture.”

“well. I don’t know why my sister acts like that. “Something doesn’t feel right but…”

To the two who were questioning Misha’s behavior I quickly followed saying that he might be sick somewhere and that he would come check on his condition.

“B Bjorn…?!”

So it was finally time for the two of us to be alone again.

I asked him again to tell me if he had done anything wrong and why he asked me to be a colleague. The answer I got was the same as before.

“Let’s just pretend that nothing happened today. “I think that would be better.”

Stubborn refusal without even giving a proper reason.

First of all I decided that now was not the time so I took a step back today and waited for the right moment.

but….

“Oh I’m sorry! “I have somewhere to go now!”

“Ainar! wash! “Let’s go hang out the laundry!”

“…I’m tired today.”

From then on Misha desperately avoided situations where the two of them were alone and no matter how she tried to find a space to ask she always gave the same answer.

As a few days passed I gave up.

“…I see. “Then let’s just pretend that day never happened.”

No matter how much I was I couldn’t be stubborn when the other person did that.

Because that would be coercion.

To be honest it was an unconscious defense mechanism.

‘Wow it makes me want to smoke.’

I can’t even remember the last time I lost my mentality like this.

Even when I stepped on a goblin trap crawled through a cave or when a pillar of fire exploded in the square it wasn’t to this extent.

‘Okay let me just do my thing.’

Since I couldn’t stay lost forever I tried to forget about what happened with Misha as much as possible and focused on work.

Fortunately there were many other things to worry about.

“Did you hear that rumor uncle?

“You mean it’s fine outside?”

“yes. “Wherever I go these days that’s all I hear about.”

Information beyond the walls which was first revealed in the community began to spread throughout the city.

Well it’s still just a rumor but…

It was clear that it would get bigger as the days went by.

‘How will the royal family react?’

Contrary to expectations the royal family has not yet responded in any way.

We need to watch a little more.

Of course doing my own thing.

“Anyway you know what’s going on today right?”

“We’ll be meeting later at the District 7 branch at 3 PM right?”

“okay.”

As soon as I finished lunch I went out first and headed to the Explorer’s Guild.

And I filled out various documents in advance.

These were the documents needed to create a clan.

Raven and Uncle Bear who said they would think about it for a bit finally made a decision.

He said he would join the clan I created.

“Raven?”

As I was writing down the documents Raven appeared before the appointed time.

“It’s an important matter but it’s too much to leave to Mr. Yandel alone.”

He said it as if he was untrustworthy but in reality it meant that he came early to help at least a little.

“How far did you go? “Give it to me.”

Soon Raven took some papers and scribbled with his pen quickly writing down his essential provisions.

It seems to be three times faster than what I was doing.

It seems like there are a lot less mistakes.

“The internal regulations are ambiguous. These things need to be decided clearly. The same applies to the provisions regarding withdrawal. “Exceptions must be made but it must be clearly stated who will make the exception.”

“I see…?”

“Give me what you’ve already done. “I feel like I need to tear everything down and fix it.”

“Here it is.”

Anyway with Raven’s help I was almost done filling out the documents when the rest of the team arrived.

“It’s a little strange because it’s my first time creating a clan myself. “Raven did you do all this?”

“yes. All you have to do is sign here. “If you want to read the documents before that read them.”

“Haha it’s done. “I hope you did a good job.”

Soon the rest of the members led by Mr. Bear signed the document and the application for clan creation was completed by handing the document to the staff.

I’ll probably be officially registered in the guild by tomorrow.

‘Then this problem is over…’

The fence called a clan goes beyond uniting us as a group and sends us further.

And in that sense.

“Everyone saved some time right?”

We left the guild and moved to the bar.

Although there are still only six people this is the first meeting held as a clan rather than a team.

After ordering only drinks and snacks we had time to share our future plans.

Well should I say it’s exactly the notification time?

“We enter the labyrinth this time.”

Now that we’ve created a decent clan it’s time to run again.

@KOI