Chapter 10: What Have I Done Wrong?

[You discuss everything with Master Li Wanshou]

[You know beyond a shadow of a doubt how bad your health is and that there is no possibility of saving it, and you begin to make arrangements for the aftermath]

[In order to be able to make your sister’s life better, you began to teach each other, including but not limited to cultivation, dealing with people, and cultivating the four arts of immortality]

[Your sister is very dependent on you, but your attitude is starting to get cold, and you want to use this to reduce her dependence on you, as well as to dilute your relationship]

[You think you’re just a dying man]

[Shouldn’t be a stumbling block to a young girl’s future]

[With your current relationship, after you leave the Heavenly Sword Sect, Xu Mo Li will definitely go to find you regardless, therefore, you are taking the initiative to destroy this relationship, trying to make Xu Mo Li feel less good about you and even hate you]

[It’s the only way she won’t look for the missing you.]

[It’s the only way she won’t find out the truth.]

[It’s the only way you can be at ease …… leaving]

[Your demeanor is quite effective, and under your deliberate coldness and neglect, Xu Moli’s dependence on you has diminished, but she still treats you with respect and as an older brother]

[Under your tutelage, Xu Mo Li officially became a Qi Refining Stage cultivator, and she was so happy that you said two words in a gaze full of expectation]

[“General.”]

[Xu Mo Li was aggrieved by your coldness, and instead of consoling her, you arranged for more cultivation courses]

[You’re in a hurry. Theoretically, you have three years left to live, but your body is starting to break down.]

[On a certain day, you realize you have a hearing problem]

[You disguised yourself so well that the young girl didn’t recognize your physical abnormality, and you silently accelerated the teaching process, wanting to teach the young girl to become capable of doing her job before your own body completely collapsed]

[Your overly strict teaching program causes more resentment and aggravation in the young girl, and she begins to suspect that her place in your heart is not important.]

[Why has it become like this, why has the elder brother who once treated her with love and care become as cold as he is today?]

[More and more grievances, more and more doubts, so that Xu Moli can no longer endure]

Six months later.

Inside the cave.

Dusty young girl, the corner of her eyes overflowed with crystalline teardrops, lips pursed, as if there were ten thousand grievances flowing in the heart.

The corners of his mouth quivered slightly, “Brother, what have I done wrong ……”

Silence.

A long silence.

Facing his sister’s inquiry, Department Xu shook his head, “You did nothing wrong.”

“And what exactly does brother do for–“

“Mo Li.”

Department Xu interrupted the young girl’s follow-up question, his eyes slightly closed as if he was remembering something, “Do you remember how long we’ve been living together?”

The young girl didn’t understand why such a question was suddenly asked, but she still subconsciously answered, “Seventeen years.”

Seventeen years.

This is the total amount of time the Hsu Department has been conducting simulations and the girl’s own age.

“Yeah, it’s been seventeen years.”

The Xu system spoke softly, his voice thick with fatigue and a husky numbness that simply could not be ignored.

“When I first met you, you were a newborn child, and in order for you to survive, I had to use the last of my rations to trade with someone for some human milk.”

“I was really hungry then ……”

“But I still worry about it every day, afraid that you won’t be happy, that you won’t be warmly dressed, that you won’t have enough to eat.”

“You were ten years old when you had a sudden attack of a vicious disease, and you were cured until this year when you were seventeen years old, seven years in between, and I have been running around moment by moment for seven years for the sake of your illness.”

Department Xu’s voice was calm, not complaining or blaming.

It just revealed a pungent weariness.

“Mo Li, if it wasn’t for you, my life could have been so much more exciting.”

“I’m human too, I have my own dreams, I can’t think of everything for you, I’m not that great, you know.”

“You’re seventeen, no longer a child.”

“It’s time to know how to take care of yourself and go live on your own!”

“I–“

“Tired.”

A depressing and dull atmosphere permeated the cave.

The light became dim and blurred.

The young girl’s face paled at the words and her eyes were lifeless, as if she wanted to retort something, but in the end she could only come up with one sentence, “So, elder brother thinks that Mo Li is a burden?”

“…… hmmm.”

Heavy hearted, as if falling into a bottomless abyss, all the emotions are gnawed away, and in the end, you can only run away in a mess.

Xu Moli choked so hard that she couldn’t make a sound.

Running fast.

Ran out of the cave.

The only thing left was the Xu System, who had lost all his strength and was paralyzed on the wooden chair, not saying a word and lost in thought for a long time.

People really are incredibly contradictory creatures.

Xu System thought in his mind.

He had prepared all sorts of sayings early on to use to sabotage his relationship with his sister and erase the impression of being a good older brother in the young girl’s mind.

But when it is actually implemented, the heart will still feel hard and intolerable.

“It really hurts …… much more than when I burned my spiritual roots ……”

Xu Xiang covered his heart and muttered, “But this way, that child will be able to completely detach himself from my influence and live well in the Immortal Cultivation World, right?”

[Your words are incredibly sharp, like a sword that runs through and tears apart a young girl’s heart.]

[She ran away alone for a long time]

[Crying bitter tears alone, wiping tears of sorrow alone, alone in no man’s corner, in the most pitiful and aggrieved and lonely posture, forcibly consoling himself]

[Waiting for Xu Moli to come back, her expression has become much colder, looking at you with eyes that are no longer full of respect as before, and no longer complaining about your training]

[Your heart is aching, your heart is happy]

[After this incident, the girl’s will has become much stronger, you feel emotionally, pretending to cover your mouth inadvertently, so that the girl did not see you coughing out blood]

[You wholeheartedly assisted the young girl in her cultivation, and the intense mental concentration made your body collapse faster, and one early morning in the 18th year of your travels, you found yourself becoming more and more powerless]

[You know, it’s time for you to go]

[Despite the reluctance in your heart, despite the fact that you still want to witness the growth of the young girl more, if you continue to stay in the Heavenly Sword Sect, sooner or later you will be discovered the truth by the young girl]

[You chose to leave the Heavenly Sword Sect without saying goodbye, driving a flying boat alone, breaking winds and penetrating clouds all the way to a place far away from the Immortal Cultivation World]

[Where to next?

[You’re confused]

[In the eighteen years since you traveled across the world, your goals have always been only to cultivate immortality and take care of your sister, but now, there’s no way to continue with either of these goals]

[You think long and hard and decide to go back to what used to be Black Rock City and live out the rest of your days alone.]

The Immortal World is huge, and there are countless mortal dynasties and places to enjoy, but none of them are as familiar to you as the Black Stone City, which holds five years of memories of you and the girl.

Whew–

The flying boat fell from the sky.

Without anyone noticing.

Without a word, the youth who no longer had any semblance of cultivation or spiritual roots, just like that, with a wooden sword, lived in the old wooden house that used to be there.

One lives alone and waits calmly for death.

Period.

Some of the neighbors who still remembered the youth greeted him, and the youth responded to each of them.

When asked how they hadn’t seen the girl, they laughed and avoided the question.