The Academy’s Undercover Professor – 189



◈ Episode 189: A lamp for the abandoned (1)

Enya quickly left the place.

She held on as her breathing grew heavier and her legs began to weaken.

Here I am faced with a past that I thought I had barely forgotten.

It felt like a wound in my heart that had been deeply engraved in the past had been reopened.

‘I was hoping you would at least apologize.’

Alex who was looking at me with a cold gaze did not show the slightest emotion towards me.

‘You forgot everything.’

I hated Alex so much.

So I desperately held back my tears.

I didn’t want to show myself weak in front of him.

“Enya.”

“Captain.”

Enya found Terina waiting for her.

Enya immediately lowered her head.

“Sorry for being late. “Captain.”

“It looks like the story is over.”

“yes.”

“Did we know each other?”

Terina asked taking a quick look at Enya.

Enya might not have tried to show it but Terina immediately noticed that her lieutenant was in a lower mood than usual.

“…yes. “A long time ago for a very short time.”

“Wasn’t that Alex just now?”

At that time one of the Nightcrawler knights who came with us spoke up.

Enya tried to stop her but Terina reacted first.

“Alex?”

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“Oh yeah. Captain. “At one time he was one of the most talented among the Noble Knights cadets.”

“Hoo.”

As for Noble Knights she knows them well.

If Seorn Academy is the empire’s best educational institution that trains great wizards Noble Knights is a training center for knights.

Almost all of the famous knight families were graduates of the Noble Knights and the competition to get into this place was fierce.

However when I heard that Enya who seemed to have a close relationship with Enya was from Noble Knights I was bound to become interested.

“Then Enya must have been in the same class as you.”

“…yes.”

It was a memory Enya didn’t really want to recall but when the leader asked she had no choice but to answer that way.

“Why is someone like that in an alley like this?”

What Terina said was just a pure question.

Enya tried to answer that she didn’t know but the clueless knight answered before her.

“Oh that guy named Alex.”

“What was there?”

“I was discharged in disgrace.”

Enya bit her lip when she was told to leave the hospital.

But no one noticed Enya’s reaction.

“Quick discharge?”

“yes. “It is said that a few days before the commissioning ceremony he assaulted a cadet and instructor of the same class.”

Assaulted five classmates and two instructors.

At that time no one could stop Alex and he ended up being a dishonorable ex-prisoner.

* * *

“Is that real? “He beat up all his classmates.”

Alex’s eyes widened at Arfa’s innocent question but then he shook his head as if he couldn’t stop him.

“okay. I hit it. Are you done? Where can I just blame my classmates? “The instructor would have been hit too.”

“Why did you hit me?”

“Why? Because I was the problem….”

“That can’t be possible. “Alex isn’t a bad person right?”

“….”

Alex was momentarily speechless at Arpa’s words.

“You’re saying we’re people doing illegal work but I’m not bad. “Do you know what that means?”

“But that’s how I felt?”

Alex tried to shoot back at Arpa asking what on earth he knew about this and why he was talking so carelessly.

But the moment I saw those transparent eyes those thoughts disappeared.

What am I trying to say about automaton?

“…I just had a problem with those guys.”

“Those guys?”

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“The people I beat up. Well actually it was a fair fight of 5 to 1 and I was too strong so I won it one-sided. “They were jealous because I a commoner was doing well while they were nobles.”

It’s natural.

The Noble Knights have overcome fierce competition.

It is unbearably unpleasant to have a commoner there but that commoner is better than them.

There was no way the nobles would leave it alone.

Those words reminded Ludger of Seorn.

Discrimination between noble students and commoner students.

A huge unbridgeable rift between the two groups.

It was a discrimination engraved throughout the world.

“It may seem like I’m showing off but even though I look like this I was the best cadet.”

In fact in terms of grades and skills Alex was close to the top of the class.

If there hadn’t been an unpleasant incident that day Alex would have definitely become a great driver.

Even if they were commoners they may have received titles as new nobles.

“Then why are you here? “If I had been patient just a little longer I would have lived in peace.”

Alex smiled bitterly at Violetta’s point.

“I guess it was because I was tired. Actually I didn’t do what happened that day out of anger. “The anger that had been building up for a long time exploded.”

I don’t make mistakes simply because I can’t overcome the anger of the moment.

In fact their sabotage continued from the moment they joined the Noble Knights.

“It’s the same with instructors. It must have been unsightly to see a commoner wandering around in a place where nobles should be popular right? “They also decided to keep disturbing me.”

If you did something they would stop you cheer you up and punish you.

Even when others were resting at their lodgings in the evening Alex ran through the parade grounds sweating under the pretext of guidance.

Even though I couldn’t sleep well and showed excellent results there wasn’t a single word of praise.

Alex gritted his teeth and endured the pouring inequality.

For three years.

“oh my god. “For three years…”

“You must have endured it.”

“I couldn’t bear it. “Because I ended up committing it in the end.”

The emotional tension that had built up over the past three years exploded not long before the inauguration ceremony.

So he became involved in the cadet violence incident.

He was dishonorably discharged without completing the commissioning ceremony.

“But she didn’t seem upset just because she was kicked out. “Isn’t there something more?”

Pantos who had been quietly listening with his arms crossed until now opened his mouth.

He pointed out Enya’s appearance and attitude.

‘No here?’

‘He’s even surprisingly quick-witted!’

The members including Violetta and Seridan Hans were silently shocked at Pantos’ question which they thought was a muscular brain that only wanted to join forces with the strong.

“Why are you doing that?”

Pantos asked if he felt something in the eyes of his colleagues looking at him.

But instead of giving an answer no one looked away.

Because you can’t say “I never thought someone with a brain and muscles like you would say something like that.”

“Pantos is right.”

Alex agreed with Pantos’ words.

“Because she and I were lovers.”

“She was the person I saw at the auction house back then. “How did we meet?”

“Just as I achieved good results there Enya was also a very high-ranking player.”

Enya is a woman and has a smaller body compared to other people.

There was a man named Enya Joiners who was naturally at a disadvantage as a knight using the body.

The fact that Enya achieved better results among other knight cadets was purely the result of her hard work.

Alex and Enya naturally competed for each other’s rankings.

Because they both had a reason to do their best.

In a way it was natural for the two to become closer.

“We were rivals at first. “I thought I could never lose to this guy so I fiercely fought against him.”

Alex still vividly remembered that time when his blood was boiling.

It was one of the few good memories in his life.

“Then at some point I started to feel more strongly that I wanted to be with this person rather than beat him.”

“Oh my.”

Violetta covered her mouth with her hand and made a fuss at the love story.

“And Enya had the same thoughts as me. “It was a fresh time.”

They also promised each other their future.

But that happiness didn’t last that long.

As Alex becomes closer to Enya and Enya gets higher grades at the military academy the world’s interference in Alex continues to come in.

“You are no match for her. Is it reasonable for a commoner to date a nobleman? Not only the cadets who were simply blinded by jealousy but even the instructors said that.”

“That young lady named Enya didn’t know about that?”

“I didn’t know.”

“Why on earth?”

“Because I hid it.”

I didn’t want her to know.

If I had told her honestly Enya who is stubborn would have argued with those people instead.

If that were the case Enya would have been lumped in with Alex and suffered discrimination.

“Enya rose to that position through her own efforts. But I can’t make it go back to the way it was just because of me.”

As soon as Enya a noblewoman proved her skills the world’s opinion changed.

It was a result that contrasted with Alex a commoner who did not change no matter what he did.

However I was never jealous of Enya.

Instead I wanted you to congratulate me.

“Maybe that’s why I couldn’t deny what those damn cadets and instructors said.”

There was a real reason why Alex kept everything a secret from Enya.

Alex himself no one else was secretly agreeing with what they said.

“The difference in status is big. No matter how much I complete my commissioning ceremony with the highest grades the label of a commoner will continue to follow me. Even if I become a knight.”

On the other hand Enya is a noble.

And because he is talented and hard-working he will succeed wherever he goes.

You will definitely be much more successful than you are.

“A guy like me was nothing more than an obstacle in her life.”

No one could offer words of comfort to the self-deprecatory mumblings.

“So I pushed Enya away.”

“You pushed me away?”

“okay. I dumped him while pretending to be dating someone else on purpose. “If I had just said I was breaking up she wouldn’t have listened.”

I still can’t forget it.

Enya’s lips were trembling in shock.

Tears formed in the eyes that were glaring in this direction and flowed down the cheeks.

And even her voice that screamed at herself.

I told myself several times that it was okay but as expected my thoughts and the reality I faced were different.

After breaking up with Enya Alex felt endless emptiness.

“I thought it would be okay if we broke up but that wasn’t the case. Rather I felt like a fool for having so tenaciously endured it for the past three years.”

At that time noble cadets approached Alex mentioning Enya.

So we finally broke up. It looks good. We didn’t get along from the beginning anyway.

The moment Alex saw that person openly mocking him he burst out laughing.

So I did it coolly.

I beat them up.

Just before I die.

Five even had swords but they were no match for Alex who had bare hands.

The instructor who only favored nobles who came to stop him also attacked him.

I was expelled from Noble Knights with the label of a dishonorable discharger.

It was truly an end fit for a commoner.

“I was too cocky. “A commoner looked up at a high place without even knowing the subject.”

Hurt the people you love and get kicked out of places where you could achieve your dreams.

After that there was nothing left for Alex.

* * *

“He had talent but was eventually discharged.”

Terina brushed her chin once with a gloved hand in response to what her subordinates said then shook her head.

“It’s a shame.”

She doesn’t know what exactly happened between Enya and that man.

However when Alex first entered the room Terina could feel the knight’s intuition.

That he is a well-trained strongman.

“Why on earth is a man like that here under the man called the owner?”

No matter how much I was discharged if I was from Noble Knights I would have been able to live up to my name no matter where I went.

You’re acting like a subordinate to the back alley ruler.

“Well isn’t that because we are commoners after all?”

“I guess that’s all I know how to do.”

Enya bit her lip as she listened to the Nightcrawler Knights talking amongst themselves.

Terina asked looking at Enya’s reaction.

“Are you okay? “Enya.”

“…I don’t mind.”

“but….”

“To begin with I have no relationship with that man anymore.”

Terina did not ask any further questions as Enya spoke firmly and cuttingly.

* * *

“I’ve been wandering ever since.”

Alex wandered around like a vagabond.

I drank and gambled every day.

There were days like that too.

There was a fight with a gang that was manipulating gambling. If it had been Alex’s skills he could have beaten all of these guys up but he didn’t.

Instead I was beaten by them kicked out and ended up rolling in the mud.

It was a day of heavy rain.

Alex stretched out in the mud and looked up at the sky.

What was so sad about the gloomy black sky was that it continued to pour rain.

I know that my life is miserable.

Still it didn’t matter.

Scum like me deserve to be treated like this.

It might have been better to settle down somewhere quickly.

It was then that someone appeared in his field of vision.

-Why are you being bullied by someone weaker than you?

A place where people passing by on the street deliberately pretended not to see.

There was one person who spoke to him.

-What are you?

-I saw this by chance at a bar a little while ago. Even though he knew the other person had cheated he still lost. Is this actually a hobby?

-Don’t talk nonsense.

-Then let’s ask another question. Are you satisfied with living like that?

Those words touched Alex’s disgust.

Alex raised his upper body and exposed his teeth.

-If I tell you will you step down? Nari looks noble?

-I guess it depends on what they say.

Even if you make a blatant sarcasm all you get in return is a blunt answer.

Alex gritted his teeth.

Alex knew too.

The other person really approached me with pure kindness.

If he really wasn’t interested he would just ignore him like everyone else.

But even though I knew it I couldn’t control this anger.

-It’s self-loathing. Are you releasing the accumulated anger on yourself?

-So what do you know…

-Aren’t you angry?

-what?

– Bowing down to those who are worse than you. Even though you have skills you are not treated well. It would all be split.

-Don’t talk nonsense.

-But why are you blaming yourself for that anger?

-Stop talking bullshit!

What returned in response to Alex’s shout was a hand suddenly stretched out.

– Let’s do it together.

-What do I believe in you?

-Do I really need to believe it?

-what? What happened to your head? So what am I doing with you?

The man said with a smile.

-At least they won’t look down on me because I’m a commoner.

-….

I thought it might have just been lip service.

No actually maybe that’s what I wanted to believe.

But Alex knew.

When everyone passes by ignoring themselves as they get dirty and rolling on the floor.

There was no way this man the only one who spoke to me and reached out to me would lie.

-You can hold my hand and then push me away. I don’t mind if you borrow money from me. I’ll lend it to you if you want. Even though it looks like this there is a lot of money. But can you keep this one thing?

-What is it?

-At least don’t do anything to hurt yourself. Isn’t that painful?

-….

It was my first time.

To have someone truly comfort you.

no. Actually it wasn’t the first time.

Because she whom he could no longer see continued to worry about him.

Nevertheless it was he who pushed away and ran away.

At that moment the dam deep in Alex’s heart collapsed.

-shit. why me me

Even when I hurt my lover and broke up with him.

Even when I was kicked out of the Noble Knights Military Academy.

Even when I was drunk wandering around the bottom.

I never shed so many tears.

For the first time that day Alex shed tears like a child.

-It’s raining a lot.

Ludger muttered that as he watched the rain pouring from the sky.

– Put down too much.

Alex who lowered his head could not answer.